Happy Tuesday Lovelies!
So I know I've been posting here and there as well as been gone for a couple of months. to be honest I haven't' been in the mood to blog. and I think it's about time I shared my experience and how I learned to be more confident.
Back in December literally two days before Christmas I was laid off my job (some way to say merry Christmas right) and this was a total and unreal first for me, I have been working since I was 16 and never lost a job I guess that saying "there's a first for everything" is totally and realistically true. In my mind I though "I've left jobs before and found another one within 2 weeks" but then it became 4 weeks....then 3 months and then finally 7 months. so yep I had been unemployed for 7 months....long, horrible, depressing, struggling months. Let me tell ya it's hard to get a job now days like super hard, I can't begin to tell ya how many applications I had placed for different jobs (I wanna say it was probably over 100) and I never got called back and if I did I went to the interviews I would never hear back from them it was always you're too over experienced or you're too overqualified. so imagine going through that every single time you hear back from an interview. I'm not going to lie there was so many time where I just wanted to give up I was so depressed that I started to eat junk food and if the reason why I've stayed at the weight that I'm at right now was because I literally went to the gym 6 days a week.
But still never in my life had I felt so...Broken so useless I couldn't provide for my family I couldn't help pay the bills at home I barely was able to pay for insurance and my car payment. I was beginning to lose my faith in God, by the 5th month I was like this isn't possible...why aren't you helping me I'm doing everything to find another job you can't abandon me..It's not a good thing for me to say that but that's how I felt. I felt like my confidence and my faith were drawing thin, I cried every other night. I'm the type of person who doesn't like to feel like she's useless I have to be doing something because If I don't I will start to overthink and get depressed, now I've never been diagnosed with depression but we're all human we all get depressed here and there.
So once I felt like I couldn't anymore where I was about to just call it quits my and my brother took a drive and we were just talking about everything because that specific week I was about to lose my car, ruin my credit, and I had heard back from 3 interviews that I didn't get the job (no surprise there) and I just couldn't take it anymore I mean I had cried but never like this I pour my heart out I cried with my all and just kept thinking how is it that I've hit so low. I seriously had thought of moving to California with my cousin and help her with my nephew. but when I talked to my brother I just cried and cried like I had never cried in my life. They say our tears say a prayer that our words never could and I strongly believe that because yes I did pray and I did cry but I probably wasn't giving it my all in it I wasn't being sincere in my talks with God I guess I wasn't trying my best to ask for him not to leave me when I needed him. So after that night 2 days later I got a callback from this job that wanted me to be apart of their company and just a matter of 2 days my life changed again and this time it was for the better I got a job getting paid as when I use to work with the city, benefits, vacation/sick time everything! I couldn't be any happier and once more I cried but it wasn't because of sadness and the lack of confidence I had in myself but because God truly had something better for me and boy was I right. maybe the other interviews I went to weren't what I needed they weren't a good fit for me and I probably wasn't going to be happy with them. Honestly I love my new job! from day 1 till now I love it more and more everyday I work with such an amazing company and with amazing people I couldn't ask for more!
So my love's if your feeling down in the dumps or you too are going through what I went through I just want you to know you can make it out of this horrible nightmare. the storm is just temporary..pray but I mean really pray and if you can't then just cry give it your all and cry cause like I said our tears say a prayer that words never could! and if you need to talk or have questions about how to get through this difficult time you can message me or leave a comment I will get in touch with you and we can talk
Here's a couple of tips to be and feel more confident:
1.Stop comparing. stay focused on you.
2. Relax. Go with the flow and don't stress the little things.
3. Love yourself. you're a great gift. nothing would be the same without you.
4. Be positive and look for the good in every situation.
5. Do what you love. Life is too short to waste your time doing anything otherwise.
6. Have faith and Pray. He has something better for you.
With the recent death of Robin Williams it's clear that depression is a serious thing please don't take your life due to it...I know it's hard so get help talk to someone. Because without you here your love ones will be the ones who suffer more than you did.
Quote of the day:
"Laugh as much as you breathe and Love as much as you live."
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Song of the day:
"By your side" Tenth Avenue North